FYI: Queen Bees have lots of lil worker bees.......lol
I thought the same thing about only seeing the negatives in my AH.
I have come to the conclusion that even sober, his behaviors are still ugly.
I don't like him.
He told me the other day: "You don't like me. I can see it in your eyes. You love me but you don't like me."
I never could lie well....
I find myself feeling sorry for him. I have finally come to terms with the fact that he is sick, truly sick.
He is still ugly underneath the sick.
There are men out there who are better (for lack of a better term) than the men we tend to associate ourselves with.
I used to believe they were all alike. Then, in a change of circles, I was exposed to a different type of man.
A man who has dignity, respect for himself and his family members, and is honest. A man who has priorities above himself.
Then I chose an ugly one.
So I am sure they are out there. I have to "fix" me in order to choose one. Period.
Once a person has space to step back and see a picture for what it really is, it is okay to not want what you discover.