Originally Posted by
PickMe 
Yeah, I was feeling all good about the relationship but now he canceled on me again. Why am I doing this to myself.
Don't beat yourself up, it's totally normal to always hope and want for the best.
I don't know how many times I've been told that the only one you can control is yourself and the only thing you can change is yourself. Alcoholism and drug addiction really does have a type of merry go round effect, things go great, then they bomb, then they're great, then they bomb. Normally, it does continue this way until either the alcoholic partner gets help and is serious or the other partner just gets tired of it.
Having said that, I'm sorry it happened and that you were let down.