It's funny. My husband is 2 weeks sober and seems to be having an easier time with his recovery then I am. His attitude is about looking forward. I wish I could feel the same way, but there is so much hurt and pain in our past. He wasn't feeling it, the alcohol numbed him. But I sit here wondering how I am to get past the years of constant lies and betrayals along with the hurt that came with it. I have this big gaping wound that needs to heal before I can move on. It seems like such a waste to have endured the hard times with his drinking only to give up at a point where he is getting well. I wonder every day how I can move past the resentment.