My heart goes out to you CC. In reading your posts it is clear you've put a lot of yourself into trying to support him and understand who he is. It must be hard to realize that all that emotional effort didn't give you the results you hoped for.
But perhaps your journey is just beginning into understanding who YOU are and how the past shapes us but does not determine who we ultimately become. Sometimes very painful things give us the most growth. Small comfort while you put those dreams with him away I know. Something tells me you'll get through this wiser and stronger
