Originally Posted by
jamaicamecrazy 
Why can’t I just be happy with what I got? Why do I always want more? Why is it always on my terms?
Because you deserve better.
At this point, I do not think you are "always wanting more" because you have false expectation of him.
I think you have higher standards for yourself, so the resentment, the "wanting more," is your self recognizing that you
deserve more.
You are not being ungrateful or unrealistic.
You are being discerning, and rebuilding your self confidence and sense of worth.
Happy Birthday, by the way. (Sorry I'm late! *Grins*)