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Old 03-14-2011, 12:25 AM
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bookwyrm
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I know that when I was living with XAH I couldn't tell you if up was up and down was down. I was living in a state of confusion. Minimising what I was living through was the only way for me to keep going. These doubts you have about being too fussy...don't you DESERVE someone 'normal'? Do you deserve to be abused? XAH was good at keeping me doubting myself. It helped him get away with so much more! Have a look through the forum for 'terminal uniqueness'. Re-read the stickies. Our situations are echoed so many times in other people's stories. I took comfort in the fact that what I was living through was echoed elsewhere - it WASN'T just me and XAH WASN'T unique (unfortunately).

Sometimes, though, what you learn can seem to be too much to take in. There are some hard things to face and work through. Give yourself time to process it all.

Do you have any face to face support? Talking to a counsellor helped me so much.
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