someone once told me that I could never move on until I got over the sadness of my Dad's choosing alcohol over his family.
My dad was a abusive alcoholic too.
How does one get over that hurt and sadness. I've also felt guilt over feeling free an relieved when he died in a car crash when I was 14. Of course I mourned and was in shock but I felt really free and have had guilt over those feelings because no one should feel 'free' when their dad dies. Maybe its different for men / women?