Courageous, take care of that grief--be grateful you are acknowledging it so you can move on. The whole thing is horrible, it's tragic and it just sucks, doesn't it? I hear you--someone once told me that I could never move on until I got over the sadness of my Dad's choosing alcohol over his family. I'm trying--but I probably haven't cried enough tears yet--can I borrow a few of yours?
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So, I'm sorry your weekend was so painful, but it sounds like you are going to come out the other side stronger.