My idea of an amends was a text or letter...lol..
I was shocked to learn that my then sponsor didnt consider that to be direct...and worse.....it wasnt to appease my guilt....or "my" anything..lol.
so i got on the bus....when every element of self was removed.
Sure, i ran all my amends past my sponsor......and looking back im glad i did.
it was suggested to me to pause on one particular one....to pray...and wait for the answer to come...
i was a whirlwind........wreckage scattered in every direction.....deep damage done to some that never asked for it.......what right do i have to go marching back up to there door, if it could create further stress..further damage...further harm...none..