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Ladybug0130 Now every time he is here (we are amicably separated but I guess the hope is to work things out?) I am upset and disgusted with him, and much happier when he is not around.
this is what i experienced with my xah. it hit me like a ton of bricks one day, and when we took our last family vacation together, my girls and i had fun when he
wasn't with, a lot less fun when he
was.
still, it took me over a year to ask for a divorce. i was paralyzed with fear of making it on my own, and of breaking up my family. it was the best decision i ever made though.
feel your feelings. there is grief here. take your time.