But I sit here thinking, I am a good person. I am attractive, fun, kind, caring, a good mother, and many other positive things
You will certainly be all those things and more if you wait a little while.
It has crossed my mind numerous times to go out and start dating, make myself available.
Yet, because I am legally married to him, I won't let myself even flirt with a man.
I understand this completely. I was loyal until the bitter end. And then had years of celibacy.
If it is against your morals or values to flirt with a man while still married, just keep doing the next right thing. In the end, for you, it is the only way.
I am sorry it is getting old, but you are making choices now to improve yourself and your life. Keep up what works for you.
Beth