Thanks for your words Solo, hearing your story and what you're going through right NOW makes me truly feel like I'm not the only one in the world going through this right now.
I feel much better today, I went and had lunch with my BF yesterday and I felt very good at seeing his progress in the past week. The house is spotless, he actually made me a meal (which was unheard of), he's been going to meetings daily (sometimes twice) and he even says he feels better than he has in a long time. The only thing that scared me was that he wants to start hangning out etc. right away. I'm very hesitant with that, as I told him. I will call him once a day, and we may even go have coffee or something this weekend, but it's hard to try to explain to him why I"m keeping my distance.
But all in all.....things are going well (so far...)
Thank you to everyone for your kind words and support. I will be trying to attend another Al-Anon meeting within the next week.