Hi Selman -
I understand your thought
and I also understand that
it's horrific to think of something
thats so awful at the same time.
That's probably why it's not often talked about.
It's more like a flash of a thought
not something dwelled on.
Or even moved into the front of the mind.
But it's there.
I understand.
I also agree with Suki.
When that 'thing' decides to show itself
no matter how foreign
or far in the back of the mind it is -
it's a clear indicator that things must change.
I actually think it's kinda brave
to mention it.
I understand.