My STBXAH is a compulsive gambler. I didn't know this when I married him, although I did know about the drinking (he was in "recovery" at the time and had 1.5 years sober). Long story short he started drinking again, secretly, after we married. Eleven months into the marriage I discovered this, in addition to the HUGE gambling issue. Lies, manipulations, promises, relapses, more lies...and two years later I'm leaving him. There is no trust and I've had to constantly monitor his activities. This is no way to live. The sick, drained feeling you have now, the emotional roller coaster, will NOT go away. Had I known beforehand what my life would be like I never would have married him. From someone who's been there all I can say is RUN and cut off all contact - it will only get worse.