Thanks JustJo, today was a hard day for some reason. His friend sent me a message about how 'well' he was doing and it set me in a tailspin of confusion and sadness. You are right though. I think he wants to be percieved as being much better than he really is. I just want to detach and whatever happens will unfold but I do great and then something will trigger this wave of anxiety and sadness. I had to do what I could to not burst into tears at work.
Oh and true to my people pleaser ways, I catch myself hoping he isn't down or depressed...
arrgh.
Maybe tomorrow will be easier.