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Old 03-05-2011, 01:49 PM
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passionfruit
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Thanx for the encouragement.

I have been going to alanon religiously. I am reading a book on codependency and one on abandonment. I have a sister and a friend of 30 years I talk to at least 4-5 times a week each. I am seeing a DV counselor at least once a week.

I am about sick of crying, talking about AH's (*ssh*le, oh I meant alcoholic hubby) crap, feeling bad about myself, feeling sorry for myself, and I could go on. I get tired of hearing myself.

I think I am getting on for a day, then this severe panic flip sets in. I find myself running as fast as I can to get away from this horrible feeling. Sometimes, I think I have dodged it only to discover it has come back with aggression in the form of self-loathing or depression or sadness or despair.

I just want to be well (as much as I can be anyhoo)!

Go away bad feelings! Get thee behind me! I cast you out! (in the name of sanity!!)
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