hi Starlight -
sometimes it does get way big
and we feel way small.
it's like in the cartoon where the bear walks out of his cabin
and shuts the door
and the entire roof of snow falls on his head.
I call that 'bunging up'.
other more intelligent people call that 'overwhelmed'.
The focus for these times
is the next thing.
Today,I'm freaking out
about something, too.
So I came straight home from school
and put on my 'house dress'
(take the girl outa the south kind of thing)
and ran a sink to do the dishes.
I have food in my house.
I have a house (for now)
The heater works.
All my grades are good.
and that's how I get a 'grip' on what's real
by talking to myself about what's HERE and RIGHT NOW.
Remember too that HALT thing.
that has a major part to play.
When you start using that
it becomes 'second nature'.
Hope something in all this drivel helps!
ohn yeah - one more thing -
