(((Jo)))
There were times with my exah that the only thing I could do was get on my knee's. No matter how I wanted to go get him, how I wanted to make him see reason, I surrendered him to God, knowing that only He could do what I couldn't. Spent a lot of sleepless nights on my knee's. However, being there prevented me from going into the co-dependent crazies I used to get, and kept me safe and sane to take care of our son. Exah had (has) a long road. Not sure if he's truly doing better or not, but he's not where he was. I'll take that. And for me that's good enough.
My thoughts and prayers are going out to you and your family. Thank you for sharing.