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Old 03-03-2011, 03:33 PM
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Alone22
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Join Date: Mar 2011
Location: CA
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It is nice to find a place where I know others will understand. I am hopeful that by reaching out to others I will be able to refocus all these negative feelings into something more positive. I have been dealing with this disease for most of my life (since I also have an AF). Just so irritated that there seems to be no resolution to this. Hate that he (AH) is the one and only one who has the ability to fix this. I can only educate my self to understand it and come to terms with it. Then pray that he finds his way to recovery and that all of this doesn't get worse. It is just so disappointing that I may never have the loving relationship I'd like to have with my AH. Hate wondering when the next time he will be difficult to deal with. Hate knowing what he is doing to his body (he drinks, smokes and over eats). I heard it called a slow suicide... all I know is that it really sucks.

I want to live and be happy... and that is my plan... now how to figure out how to get there.

Thanks again for the warm welcome.
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