Hi,
To whomever asked, my girls are very young; 5 and nearly 3. The 5 yr old I have finally taken to a therapist who is helping her deal with her fear, anger, stifled emotions etc...
I know it is not a good environment for them and yet I am here. What kind of mother does that make me is a question I ask myself a lot lately.
I have a therapist and face to face support at a weekly al anon mtg but am back to worrying about leaving the house with the girls in bed and my husband there alone bc if he gets drunk and I am not around and the girls need something, they will get ignored.
I know right now I am letting emotions and not logic or rational thinking control me and I need to stop.