I have learned that there is much I do not understand. And I have finally learned to be ok with not having the answers. They will be revealed in their own time.
You are better off to be no contact, even no eye contact. I know it hurts, but once you get through the grief of losing what you believed you had found, you will feel so much better.
Someone who will love you and not hurt you is out there somewhere. Actually, that person can be you. Enjoy the time you get to spend with you, healing and taking care of yourself.