Did prayers work a little? As I burst into tears asking god to help my son, I asked him if he could think a little about what we have been through over the years and give me a little 'breather' a little time out, you know.
Last night at about 9pm there was a knock at the door. It was my sons girlfriend. She needed to pickup some of his things, as he was starting a new job today. We went to his bedroom, got some of his stuff and we got talking. She knows all about his drug addiction, but obviously not about the money (it is not up to me to tell her that). Shes hoping the new job will help him. Its a start, I guess but I told her it wont fix the drugs. Im just glad that he saw the need to look for a job again.
We decided it was ok for her to ring me anytime if she needed to talk (hugging each other). I guess my son just couldnt face me - I still havent seen him or spoken to him. I think its time.
JJ