Welcome threewishes
Glad you found SR. Your posts are inspirational, it's so hard, but just like you said, "on the road to peace of mind and happy destiny"...all of us here are, and SR makes the journey easier, for me anyway.
My life is so much better in so many ways since I left my exabf. He is now recovering, just over 1 year of sobriety, and we have begun to see one another after lots of time no contact. I have learned to find my happiness and peace of mind within; what a gift that is.