Welcome to SR, Threewishes.
Originally Posted by
threewishes 
At times I'm tempted to stay - because RIGHT NOW it would be easier. But I don't trust that he will change...
I completely understand that feeling. It actually kept me with XAH far longer than I should have stayed. It's a really tough decision to make - leaving or staying. Following through on it was definitely overwhelming when I sat and tried to see
everything I had to do. Making lists helped make it feel like "I can do this."
All you have to do is take the next step. Then the next one. Hang in there and remember to take care of yourself through all the packing and moving.