" When I knew that he really did not want to change his life but rather be left alone to liveit as he saw fit."
Thank you Itsmealice. That's what I am just coming to realize now with my AH.
All the promises he made, all the lies he told were just his way of getting me to put myself at his mercy. So I have no opinion, no thoughts, no feelings, no voice. And he is free to do what he wants wether I am here or not.
And to Chelle,
Iam not in a position to give advice just yet.....but I just wanted to say, after leaving my first ex with my two children, that it will get better.
All the pain your going through now is temporary.
Even the longest rain storm will eventually end, making way for beautiful rainbows.:ghug3