Originally Posted by
starlight40 
Here's an additional thought.
I'm ashamed!
Now that I'm finally waking up to reality. I am ashamed that I've wasted so many years of my life. Ashamed that I could be so stupid, and think so little of myself as to feel this is all I deserve! No I deserve more even if no one else thinks so. I know I do.
This feeling goes away eventually, as you begin to realize your power in this situation again. And then it does start to feel better! I am no longer ashamed; I made the best decisions I could make with the information I had to make them, they are made and I can't go back and un-make them now. But I can start making good choices for me today and tomorrow, and the next day, so on...