I'm an artist.
It is currently under discussion at my school
if I even POSSESS a left side of a brain LOL!
BUT-
here's a good way to picture it.
When we're all 'codied up"
we're like these people walking around a barnyard
with a wide open bucket of grain.
Everything in the pasture
knows it can 'feed' when we're around.
I mean, if a family or relationship
sucks us dry
what else can they be doing but 'feeding'
even if only on energy?
ANYWAY-
we learn about ourselves
and put down the bucket.
Suddenly the whole 'barnyard' is confused
and frustrated
because the 'thing' they always 'got'
(or stole or took or whatever descriptive you wish)
is suddenly not there any more.
SO SURE they're going to try to FORCE ... something.
They're going to 'crowd' first ...
(this is strictly experience as a horse trainer, mind)
then they're going to try and 'block' you
to make you produce the 'bucket'
then they might haul off and kick another animal
and soon
you've got cowskicking horses
chickens pecking cats
... chaos.
BUT -
Once the new 'feed' place is established
things DO settle down.
It's not so much different with humans and barnyard animals.
WHich takes it to a whole new level of 'sad'.
I like that analogy.
Metaphor.
Allegory.