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Old 02-26-2011, 09:15 AM
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starlight40
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Thankyou all for your words ZRX. And yes I was under the delusion that I could fix it.
But I surrendered that fantasy when he went back to it, and used me as the scapegoat.

Then I deluded myself into thinking it wouldn't get any worse.

And I am glad you are challenging my decision to wait until July, because I need straight talk Lexiecat. So thank you.

I sit here and type ever fearful that he will find out what I am doing, but having the courage to do it any way. Maybe with each day I'll get stronger.
But I'm just starting to realize the extent of the deception and manipulation, like I'm just waking up from a dream.

I know it's my fault for being in this position in the first place, and only I can get myself out. Like I said, for now anyway, I believe waiting a bit longer, so I can come up with some money, is best, and safest for me.
But if and when things get worse it might bolster me to speed up my time table.
In the meantime, I'm going to visit this site as much as I can to continue to educate myself, and to keep it real.
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