Welcome to the forum.
I'm sorry for the reason you found us -
but am glad you've found us.
I hope you'll take the time to read the stickies at the top of the page.
You've got a lot on your plate right now
does the hospital offer a support group for spouses where you are?
SOmetimes that's a good place to start.
Support in real life is very important as well as online.
Again - welcome to the forum!