Hi Aurora -
I could do the "one or two glasses" thing, too, although I've realized a few things after getting sober this time:
1. One or two drinks usually left me wanting more. I never knew whether I would stick to my limit or justify another then another then another....
2. If I succeeded in sticking to my limit, the next time I drank I somehow felt justified in going all out..... sooner or later I erased any "progress" I might have made.
3. If I didn't get a buzz, what was the point? Why do it?
4. If I really could be a social drinker, why hadn't I already done it?
5. What was so important to me about a drink that I felt I needed one, considering my history?
Of course, when I was drinking, I really didn't bother to get this honest.
The obsession took a few months to fade, but it has (thank goodness).... I don't see why it can't be the same for you....:ghug3 Hang in there!!!!!!!