Ya know, Chicory,
I'm one of those people who always felt if I wasn't in fear and worrying that I wasn't "doing my job". It was almost superstitious, the way I felt if I worried enough that it would somehow make a difference in whatever it was I worried about.
Instead, it paralyzed me into inaction, kinda like it has you. It only made me suffer, and it kept me from focusing on other things that could actually have a positive impact on my life.
Letting go of fears is an amazing feeling, once you get the hang of it. You discover that events occur, and unfold, as they will and realize that no amount of worrying would have helped the situation. Sometimes the events that happen are not pleasant, and sometimes they are wonderful. But we can watch them with a degree of detachment, knowing that they are out of our ability to control.
I've gotten a LOT better at this recently, and it takes a huge weight off my shoulders.