Donna, do whatever you have to, get yourself some distance and peace. You deserve so much better.
When you get a taste of the serenity that awaits you away from an active alcoholic, there is no price too high. Ask for the help you need, and give yourself a chance to see what life can be like away from him. When I left my abf, in the back of my mind, I knew I could always go back, that he would take me back...What I have gained in living alone and taking care of myself is priceless. Now that I see that, I will never live that way again.