Yay! Yup, progress, not perfection.
I've heard it said that we can't think ourselves into right-acting, but we can act ourselves into right-thinking.
It's sorta like learning a foreign language. You have to keep doing it and doing it and make mistakes and keep doing it.
"Fake it till you make it" does have its virtues, IMO. So long as you don't fake it forever. I had to practice talking/thinking/acting like a sober person. Over time, the phrases that I parroted became internalized.