Hi and welcome to SR!
Funny to read the posts to the new members and see the common threads in all of our stories. We've all walked the same path. As Shellcrusher says above - some have been on it much longer than others. Some have been successful in their journey through alcoholism and recovery, some are still trying, some got off the path completely. It's a very personal decision to make that only you can do, and trust us when we all say you will make it when you are ready, regardless of what your alcoholic is doing at the time.
We've all been blamed, cursed, abused, accused of horrible atrocities, manipulated, defeated, lied to, cheated on, etc...in our varying degrees on this journey. We've sat in the seat you sit in today. You are not alone in your struggles.
If you know the road you are looking down and what it potentially holds, you will feel more empowered to make better decisions. Go to an Al-Anon meeting (or several, or like me 4+ a week) read everything you can find about alcoholism, listen to the stories you'll find here, educate yourself to what this means for you. It doesn't mean you have to do anything at the moment. That's the beauty of having choices. You can choose to take this one step at a time, on your own timeframe.
Take good care!
~T