(((photuris))) Welcome to SR! I'm so sorry for what brings you here, but you have found a wonderful place.
Face-to-face support in an Al-Anon meeting has provided so many of us the strength and tools we need to reclaim our lives. I hope you will consider finding a meeting so that you have the strength you need to protect those precious boys and yourself. Abuse is unacceptable in any form!
Hugs, HG