You are not alone. You will be amazed at how many of us are sitting in your house, living your life. Welcome to SR, you should also find an Al-Anon meeting pronto and get some education in your head. This ride is just beginning.
Read the stickies on this forum (above the active threads).
Read books about alcoholism. I can't recommend Debra Jay enough, and "Marriage on the Rocks", by Janet Woititz is another good one to read right away.
Just know that you are not alone - you found this huge forum full of people just like you - who are coming to terms with addictions, whether in themselves or their loved ones. We are here to support each other and find solace in our shared experiences. Hope you come back.
Take good care,
~T