anyone ever been in this kind of situation?
HA! Every damn day of my life.
why is it up to me?
It isn't. You just THINK it is.
why cant God take this out of MY hands?
He CAN. But you won't let go. Because you want God to handle it YOUR way.
Why cant there be someone else who gives a sh--?
There is. But it is not YOUR job to find them. It is SON's job.
Love ya'
Chicory. You will get there when you get there. Are you continuing to work on YOU in the meantime?