hey, I find the memories of the craziness get really dimmed. But then one conversation with someone from my past (and I do still talk to some and also have family-far away family) who is sounding drunk...and I get the heebie jeebies big time. I always come away knowing I can never be close to active alcoholism in my life ever again.
I would wind up guilty of homicide or something. No tolerance for it left at all.