Donna-
You are not stupid-none of us are.....
I have broken NC so many times, I can't even remember the number.
My problem is I have NEVER in the past 5 years seen the man I love drunk or with a drink in his hands-I know he is an alcoholic because he tells me everything-how he was when he drank (he is 7 months into recovery) tells me about his 3 mtgs a week, etc...
So I find it hard to believe...
I have read a lot on Alcoholism in the past, and am still learning new things every day, especially from here. I don't post much but read here a few times a day.....
None of us are stupid for what we do..we are just people trying to love someone that can't love themselves...
Sigh.