You need to do what you feel is right for
you.
I still miss my XABF (ex-alcoholic boyfriend), but I know in my heart that sending him on his way was the right thing to do. He is still not working any recovery plan, and if he's sober right now he's doing it out of spite.
The relationship I had with him was too toxic, and it took so much out of me that I am not sure who I am anymore. My relationship with
myself is what I need to develop right now.
I still think of him, and I do still miss the person I used to think he was...
But my life is much calmer and happier without worrying about the drama he caused constantly.
It's time to work on
you, for the sake of yourself and your little one.