Old 02-13-2011, 11:51 AM
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blwninthewind
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funny you mentioned the journalling.
I tried to journal for years...I gave it up after a day or two because it was just so upsetting putting what I was living with in words on paper. made it real and I could see it for the abuse it was. So rather than deal with it head on...I stopped writing.
Brillant huh? who's the one in denial here? lol
But now...
I journal. I feel how I do and write it all out. All the bad and the good.
and there actually IS good now.
I can see that come August (maybe before, God willing)....I will be free and I'm looking forward to it even if I'm sad at the same time.
It's just confusing ....
even now.....I don't know. I feel like I'm the sick one.
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