Tuffgirl, thank you. It does feel good here on the SR Forum & in places like Alanon to say, "I am troubled & I need heeeeeeeeeelp!" It feels safe. I don't feel judged (although "feeling judged" is really *my* issue.) And I know you all understand. (I have to fight my "Know-it-All" urge!)
Takingcharge, I have appreciated your posts. As you say, I am going to work on keeping my heart & mind open to receive all the wonderful gifts from you & everyone here! Thank you!
Hopeworks, I am working on enjoying & liking "boring!" I am wondering if I can use the same stubborn pigheaded determination that has guided my poor relationship choices to work on eradicating those deep scars & fixing my broken self! (Or should I try different strategies?) Maybe, I should try a more "boring" approach, instead of always trying to climb waterfalls (even in my own recovery)!
Tallulah, I hope I can get to where you are at & to say, "Wow, I have come a long way!" :-)
It's nice to know that I am not alone!