Heartbreaking to think of it this way... seems such a terribly lonely way to live and die.
It is, and when I reached that point ....................... where I knew I WAS dying, and would die trying to sober up, I WANTED to die sober. I was given a 2nd chance, after I did die in the ER. I have seen too many over these many years sober that don't, can't or won't even try .................... that they are so enmeshed to King Alcohol that they have given up trying to break the bonds of slavery.
To see XABF around, smiling as if nothing is going on.
As if he is special and won't end up like one of those described.
Horrible disease, the denial still shocks me.
I think most alkies I have known and still know, with ME at the top of the list, think that way while practicing their affliction:
"That won't happen to me, I am different, I can handle it, etc"
Yep, I sure could handle it, living in my car, which I kept parked as much as possible (didn't want to get a DUI) at the back of the Hollywood Bowl parking lot, and of course,Ii wasn't like those 'others' (my 'wino' street folk friends), afterall I still had my car to sleep in, and folks places I could go to, to shower....................... sheesh, how sick is that?"
That is THE INSANITY.
J M H O
Love and hugs,