That small quiet voice inside me knew it was time to go years before I actually went. I ignored it. I shoved it aside, rationalizing and justifying my denial and magical thinking. I was unconscious.
After I got into therapy, I asked my therapist how to discern that voice. How could I separate it from the other voices, the shaming, rationalizing, committee in my head that told me all the wrong things to do? She said the voice of your instinct, your gut, is never loud or shaming. It always has your best interests at heart. It is that feeling you have right before you step on the ice that maybe you should *slow down*. That little thing you feel right before you fall on your a$$.
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