AH is getting released tomorrow and I am nervous sick about what is to come. I have been looking into full-time child care options and think I have a neighbor that will work out. Still not sure how I will manage those costs into my budget, but I don't really see any other option. He is riding a bus home since he is 3.5 hours away from where we live since I am not going to pick him up. He understands that things will be different. He is just asking for 2 days to come home and get his affairs in order. I have no clue what his plans are and where he will go. Part of me just wants him to go home to his parents that are out of state, so that way I can concentrate on me and the kids. I think I have come to accept that he needs serious help and that it is time to at least seperate. I need to work on my recovery and stop focusing on his.