Thanks for sharing your own stories and for your encouragement. I'm going to do whatever it takes to get through this crazy time in my life. Al Anon and AA are hard for me because of child care, but I'm going to make a point to go when the kids are with their dad or when my dad is around to watch them. I've tried to stop before, but I've never gone "public" with it until now. I'm feeling really confident that I can do this.