Yes, I too understand!
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I was married to my alcoholic 14 years. At some point in the marriage, I felt my A was more attracted to other women than myself. Especially the drunk, social women. So, I became one. At some point, my drinking passed that acceptable level and became my obsession.
You are not alone.
I had to want my own sobriety more than I wanted my marriage, my career, my children. My sobriety had to become my priority. I had to want sobriety more than anything else or I was risking losing everything.
I have my sobriety, but I did lose the marriage, the house, and my excellent credit rating. In their place, I have self respect, the respect of my close friends, my children, and my family. And I have hope for today!
You can do this!