Originally Posted by
justsotired 
II will remember that jealousy is not love.
I will remeber that pain is not love.
I will remember he needs everything I do for him, much more than he needs me.
I will remember it won't get any better.
I will remember the good in the man I believe is still there deserves a chance, and leaving is the only way to give it to him.
I will remember I do not deserve to not live like this.
I will remember that I don't owe him anything.
This is a great list, Justsotired.
Calling the DV hotline does not obligate you to taking any particular action that you do not feel you're ready for yet. What it does do is provide you with an advocate for
you. Some one who will give you guidance and support and information. Tell them that you're planning on leaving, and they will help you make your safety plan and they may be able to point you to resources that are available that you had no idea existed. Every little bit of information helps.
Take care of yourself. You are stronger than you're aware of. Wishing you continued strength and serenity.