I've written emails, texts, and left voice mails baring my soul, my heartbroken rants and then found out later (when I reconciled with him again and again...) that he never received them: he deleted them without listening or reading because I was "hysterical" and he "figured" I was drunk (me, the person who drinks a couple of times a year, if that). I don't even bother wasting my time now. I have had a couple of wickedly delicious dreams where I was seriously punching him out, however.