Welcome, glad you found us.
I second what uncertainty said. Get some rest. You have decisions to make, but you don't have to make them this minute. Or even today or this week.
Get to some Al-Anon meetings if you can. It will be very helpful in terms of getting yourself calmed down and thinking straight. Al-Anon was an absolute lifeline for me when I was desperate after my ex-husband was hospitalized with liver failure and was touch-and-go.
Take care of yourself, things will eventually become clearer.